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Thursday, December 3rd, 2009
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Shipping is $3 in the US for the first 3 items or 5oz (which ever comes first). .50cents after that per oz. International shipping starts at $5 for the first 3 items or 5oz and .50 cents after that per oz.. Paypal only. Will ship when payment clears. Will hold items for 12hrs, after that will move to the next person. Please respond with your email address, or I will move on. If you pass on an item, I will delete comments. I will Screen email addresses after I have invoiced.
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40 kisses and you Take me in your arms..
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Tuesday, December 1st, 2009
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December first has always been more of a mark of a new year than say the 31st. It’s the day that soo many things happened at once in a matter of 12 hours, 6 years ago. I never want to bring it up but some how thing it is so important to NOT forget.
Anna (![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif) small_w0nd3r ) passed away
To remember when Vasily ran out of class, sitting in the year book room when Sharneet got a text message from him as to what happened. Spending all after noon in tears and having to do a STUPID debate on behalf of Gay Straight Alliance with the Christian Club on legalizing gay marriage. The stupid thing should have been called off. By last class it was all around school asking if it was true, not true. That night out of anger I picked a fight with my boyfriend that easily ended our relationship. But it was. I knew how much she meant to him, his big sister. Neither of you should have been in that house… I guess if anything im grateful that you didn’t have to be apart of what happened after. You’re brother is a strong man, stronger than his father. I’m proud of him as I am sure you are too. He has found someone at the moment that has probably made him the most happiest since you passed. Hopefully he doesn’t feel so lost anymore.
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1 kiss and you Take me in your arms..
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Wednesday, November 18th, 2009
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went to the lab this morning for a 12hour fasting blood and urin work up. Im slowly getting results in and its still depressing.
Sed rate is still high and my protien leakage is high.
This is all depressing.
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Take me in your arms..
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Monday, November 16th, 2009
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im at my wits end again. Of course it has to do with my roomate. Who knew 3 months could be so fucking long. Specialy when they won't let you sleep.
So i get it, we don't like each other. I do my best to ignore her. As she does for me but she has really taken it to another level. She just assumes i do not exist AT ALL. Meaning my personal belongings have no place nor does my being. Her boyfriend or what-ever-the-fuck-he-is. is over every fucking night. From 10 (or earlier) till about 2:30 3 they are loud as all bloody hell. And usually when i wake up in the morning, something of mine id fucked up. Be it my trash can kicked over on the floor, my kitches stuffed moved all over the place or again, on the floor. I can not stand it anymore. I'm tired, im sick (and getting worse) but i just have this *thing* in me that DESIES people treating me like shit. It makes me want to be fucking violent as all hell.
I now have a headache 24/7 and hate my life and hate my family for not sticking up for me. oh yea. shes still hasant paid utilites. Part of me wants to have them shut off for the next few months.
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Monday, October 26th, 2009
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im not dead or did i go to jail.
just bee counch surfing, went to san jose over the weekend to see my mom and talk this shit out.
No way out of it for shea and I, we just need to live with one another until feb. some point. If i could find a copy of that stupid lease i would feel TONS TONS TONS better but so far nothing.
her and i are avoding one anther. I still don't feel comfortable being anywhere alone with her.
life is fucking crazy. Thats all i can say, fucking nuts
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1 kiss and you Take me in your arms..
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Tuesday, October 20th, 2009
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I spent most of the night crying my eyes out. My cousin personally attacked me on facebook. Who needs enemies when you have family? I should have never let my mom and my uncle make her move in with me. Not at all. I spent the night at a friends, most likely im going to spend the night at work. Its too much. All of it. It hurts. 4 months left of the lease. Im going to the management to see if I can brake my end of it early with out it being to much of a big deal. I doubt it but I need to try. I don’t have any money. I have $100 to my name and that is it. No more bellydance- cant afford it. I cant afford anything.
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Friday, October 16th, 2009
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Sugar seems to be in everything! Along with a bunch of other crappy stuff. By biggest thing with eating whole fresh food is that I never eat it fast enough. It goes bad before im home long enough to do something with it. Over and over again. Iv tried cooking once a week and then eating from it but I tend to over eat at that point and the food dose not last as long as Id liked. I need to find a middle ground. First is no more going out to eat with mina. Really limit it because all she likes is fast food. Wendys, bjs tonight she wants to get Texas BBQ. I should just stay home with the dog instead. Plus I don’t have the money to eat out. Need to cut back on processed carbohydrates. Need to get my body of processed food. But until I have a better handle on my sugar deal I think I will wait on that. Yesterday I had a really bad crash at around 3:30, that is the time I usually pick up a diet rockstar and get completely wired. Fucking love that stuff. Oh yea, I love popcorn too. Specially the organic popcorn with olive oil and sea salt. Down a bag of that asap. And its only $1.79 Got a list of stuff to go shopping for, some of its is interesting, but eh. See what I can make due. Really wanna try this raw “crème’ of mushroom soup.
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4 kisses and you Take me in your arms..
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Thursday, October 15th, 2009
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Iv been really lazy studding for my water treatment operations exam. I only have 6 months, wait make that 5 to get my certificate. I’m dropping the ball on this. Its my one clear shining path to help me get out of this ever working poverty. Just really hard to look as a goal over a year long away, though if I luck out hopefully it will be sooner. Hope. Last night at dance class there was around 5 new girls, three newbies and an older dancer getting back into the shake of things. Worked on the same moves over and over again, it was drill night. We added this 3/4th “ramba” turn that left a bunch of us dizzy after the 5th or so run at it. Went over hip drops again and the famous 3/4th (choochoo) shimmy. I used to own that fucking shimmy. On the balls of my feet, flat footed, backwards, sideways. I have no freaking idea why or how I lost it. Im lucky if I can make a pass across the dance studio with that shimmy. I’m sure its because my lack of practice. Being lazy has affected my own life at this point and apathy has surely been apart of the reason too. I am a little concerned if the teacher is going to stall our group for the newbies to catch up, if so ill be pissed. Utterly and completely pissed but I guess its not my call. The apartment is a mess. Its been over 6six weeks and my cousin has not only not done her dishes but has added to them and there Is officially no useable utensils unless I do her dished. The place needs to be vacuumed; ugh jus so much stuff to do. Its utter bullshit. Today is safety meeting day, which means if im lucky I get to take some food home. Had a bagel for breakfast, no cream cheese. The meal of a winner, can’t you tell? Nikki came over with Alli to marks house while I was over. Brought a huge bag of McDonalds random burgers from the dollar menu to pig out on. Apparently she is going to get the lap band surgery. Doctor told her she will go down to 140lb. NO idea what she’s at now. So that makes three people I know having the surgery. Mom, Staci and now Nikki. That thought really had me a bit depressed. They don’t realize (or maybe they do) that after that surgery all the food you are being forced to give up after surgery is food you should have given up now and you wouldn’t need the surgery. Why is weight always such an issue. I know im not comfortable with my own weight, its been an issue since middle school (thanks cory). But my mom is only 10lb heaver than me. Does that mean then I should get it as well?
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Wednesday, October 14th, 2009
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i feel like crying my eyes out and i have no idea why. i feel so unbeliveably sad at this moment and i don't think it has anything to do with my period either because im still a week if not more away from it.
maybe its life all together just coming after me. perhaps that is it.
3 days low sugar intake. id be sugar free if it wasn't for half a cookie my friend made and i tried and then this drink from after dance class.
god i feel so fucking depressed right now.. i have court on monday. fml
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Monday, October 12th, 2009
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Money, get back.
Im all right jack keep your hands off of my stack.
Money, its a hit.
Dont give me that do goody good bullshit...
and the constant woe of all my issues. Sadly yes money is holding me back from ALOT of things.
I have 6 paychecks until the end of the year (which is in 3 month)
3 of them go to rent. The other three which is only say... 2100 needs to pay back my uncle for the loan of my car which is 1400 leaving me 700 to support myself in all things, food, insurance, water, gas, and by beloved birthday. Ha... yea not going to happen.
wow, depressing.
edit~
lets edit these expsenses even more:
three months of insurance is = 240
three months of utilites=150
three months of gas= 300
three months of creditcard payment min=300
and these are things htat NEED to be paid for.
i guess im going back to "stealing" food from work and standing in line at food banks.
crap fucking crap.
will someone please hire me on for the holiday season. i swear i must have filled out over 20+ applications this moth alone.
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Friday, October 9th, 2009
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Ssssoooo.... south city and other cities in the area are installing photo enforment cameras to cut down on red light runners. Hey i think its a great idea. how many times have you sat, ready to enter an intersection when the light goes green but then all of a sudden someone runs a red light in the other direction and you think, wow i could hae been hit.
Well it happens to me enough that i thought yey for the cameras.
Well i got two tickets for making a LEGAL right hand turn on a red light. Each ticket is $500. Im fucked. Yes i can fight it but, from what i have been reading its not easy and no one has been able to yes. Iv come up with a dozen or two diffrent things to bring up but im still scared to do it. My court date is teh 26th of this month. So i asked my dad what i should do (yea, i know im shocked too! i actually emaild the guy) . Being in court so much himself i figure he might have some tricks in mind.
and then i realized after he emailed me back, how crazy he actually is.
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1 kiss and you Take me in your arms..
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Friday, October 2nd, 2009
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Found a picture from when i graduated from highschool
i wonder what my then me would say to my now me.
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Monday, September 28th, 2009
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Tuesday, August 4th, 2009
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ah, food... soon ill be able to buy you.
in the mean time. stupid hunger pains, i hate you.
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Wednesday, July 15th, 2009
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im selling my mac makeup... i need the money, id like to eat something other than noodle, pasta or rice.. just so damn cheap. like a fruite or veggie or meat... damn
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11 kisses and you Take me in your arms..
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im down to three cup o noodle and some uncooked rice and dry cereal.
we have a safty meeting today at work and they usually go out and buy food for it... i totally took two bagels and some granola bars in a bag and went back up to my desk. If there is anything left after the meeting im taking that too (hopefully the milk for the dry cereal i have at home)
come tomarrow i will be getting paid and im so throwing my whole packcheck at my credit card.
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i dont qualify for foodstamps and im too embarrised to go to the food pantrys.
my credit card is maxed out.
and non of my family knows.
i feel as if im going to freak the fuck out.
why dont i have any money?
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2 kisses and you Take me in your arms..
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Wednesday, June 24th, 2009
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im trying not to have a total mental brake down it is not easy.
Shit completly got away from me. Bottom line.
i have $4000 on my credit card plus owe my grandparents another $750... The utter fucking shame that i had to ask them for money is really really killing me. Like dead to no end.
so im almost $5000 in the hole right now.
I have $1400 in savings and $124 in checking. as well as $300 in cash stashed at my tattoo/ bodymod funds.
It feels like i have ZERO dollars.
i get paid friday BUT i have to turn around and put all that money and then some from savings to rent on the first. I need to cut some serious costs in my life NOW. Major being i guess is cable at the moment. Easy $60 right there. But soon ill have to be covering my own cellphone bill so i will be where i left off.
I tthink i just want to magically pay everything off right now this minute BUT im scared if a throw either a larg amount of money at my creditcard or pay back my grandmother my cash fun for a newish car is gone and my car is going to brake down right then and there. and god knows unless i do throw it at my creditcard then i have nothing to fix it with. >.< It hurts. my head freakin hurts.
i wish i had something to fall bck on. i wishi had a home to move back into. I wish alot of things
right now i wish money wasnt an issue
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